I went home to attend a wedding. While there I hung out with various friends.
The best thing said to me the entire time I was there:
while being hugged – “you’re wasting away”
The worst thing said to me the entire time I was there:
after eating dinner at a friend’s place – “wow, I’ve never seen you eat so much in my place before”
Sidenote, I ate the same amount of food as my friend in an attempt to appear normal, it wasn’t like I had a binge session at her place or something.
Guess which of the two comments has repeated itself in my head every day since it was said to me. Guess which of the two comments has fueled my restricting tendencies. Guess which of the two comments makes me want to cry, to scream, to quit this ridiculous thing called life.
Only one of those comments affected my behaviour, the way I feel and see myself, my self-esteem…and you can bet your ass it wasn’t the compliment.