I am all for days upon days upon weeks upon months of food restricting. Before binge eating seemed to completely take over my life I was really good at food restricting and frankly, I despaired of ever being able to do it properly again, what with binge eating being some freakish type of demon set loose within me.
But this past week I dunno, something has changed. I’m not sure how it changed, or why, but I like it. I’m confused by it, but I like it all the same lol
I noticed about a week ago that I wasn’t craving the foods I normally binge. I wasn’t hungry. I just didn’t want to eat.
Thing is I had a habit of eating now didn’t I? Why yes, yes I did. So even though I wasn’t hungry I had the habit of eating and found myself reaching for food out of reflex. I would nibble on something and almost immediately feel sick to my stomach, as if I had just binged when in fact I would have eaten something quite small, not even the size of a normal person’s snack.
Soooo, what’s going on?
It’s gotten beyond not feeling hungry to feeling gross in my tummy whenever I think of eating.
Which I gotta say, is great! 😀
I’ve been eating the equivalent of a meal and a bit per day for a week now and feel so much better about myself for having not only not binged but also eating such a small amount daily. I know a meal and a bit sounds like a lot but my meals are way smaller than most peoples so it’s not as gluttonous as you are imagining.
Tomorrow I am going to try only having this protein shake that I make, it has fruit, yogurt, protein powder, green veggies, almond milk and omega 3 oil. I make it thick so it is filling and I can take it to work and sip on it all shift. My plan is to restrict even more than what I am naturally eating right now to help me get back on track more quickly. 🙂
Summer bodies are made in winter, I’ve gotta get cracking!